Thank You

I have so much....do I remember to say thank you? I have a husband who works tirelessly so I can stay at home, but do I remember to say thank you? I sinned against him and he forgave me, he trusted me again, loved me again, but have I thanked him?

My parents have loved me forever, through some terrible times, some times I've been a dreadful daughter, but have I just said thank you?

My children have grown with a mother who has been sick so much of the time and they never complained, they just got on with everything, have I said these two simple words? Thank you.

Friends have cooked for me, prayed for me, gathered supplies for me, raced me to the doctor, sat with me, listened to me. When have I said thank you?

To God, whom I have cried out to and asked for so much, so many times, have I said it, have I humbled myself before my Lord and said the most wonderful, praise filled two words there are, thank You.

I sit and wonder why?

There are days without pain and others that are insurmountable.

I wonder have I been forgotten or have I forgotten how to let it go.

Not all of my pain is physical, some merely transient pain in my heart

Brought about from my past, things I can't even write or talk about

I see a shrink and I sit and wonder why?

I want to touch the sky, so many things I can do.

Where do I start?

I can do things others can't, others only think about, I wonder why?

Love abounds me all the while, family and friends who love me so

Yet I sit and wonder why?

Who would love one such as me?

I sit and wonder.

The Changling (Movie starring Andelina Jolie)

Well I just got home from seeing this movie with my 20 year old daughter. It was so moving that we couldn't even really talk about it, except to say how dreadful human beings treat each other and behave.

At this time of my life I'm still astounded at the way the human race, can and do, treat one another in the most degrading and appalling ways.

It was a beautifully made movie, the sets, costumes, the whole look of the movie was lovely to look at given it was such a harsh topic.

Clint Eastwood truly is an incredible movie director.

Angelia Jolie has never really been a favourite of mine, but after tonight my opinion has changed, she's a really good actor and I think she may even be referred to as great in the future.

I don't want to say much about the story line because this movie deserves to be seen to be believed.....especially since it is a true story. I should just say that the topic is dark and I wouldn't recommend the movie for anyone under 18.

As Molly Meldrum would say "do yourself a favour".

Fires In Victoria

What a dreadful weekend the people of Victoria have had. The whole state seems to be up in flames with well over 120 people dead and 5,000 homes razed to the ground.

Such a terrible tragedy. Yet through adversity heroes arise. I saw a man on tv who had saved over a dozen people even though his own house was lost and his face was burnt.....and his brother came to save him.

I am often amazed at the heroics of Australians during tough times. Every year we have fires and floods and we band together in amazing ways to help one another. As of last evening the Red Cross had already received $13 million in donations, the banks and large businesses had given in excess of $20 million and the federal government were criticized for only promising $10 million, but that was before the tragedy had reached such a high toll, so I'm sure they will increase this amount.

I can only hope and pray that the people affected by these fires are able to re-build their lives, and that the culprits are caught and punished accordingly.

EYES

This week I had my eyes "fixed", meaning I had laser eye surgery. What can I say? I can now see for the first time in my life without glasses as thick as the bottom of Coke bottles....my life will never be the same.

Down side, none really, 2 weeks without make-up, ha I think I can cope, drops in my eyes for a month, BIG deal, sleeping in goggles for a couple of nights, no biggy, and no swimming for 2 weeks, well it's rained for the last week and it hasn't been that hot yet anyway.

So why am I bothering to write this all down.....because if you're reading this and thinking about having this rather minor, though expensive surgery done, think no more. You'll never look back, you'll be too busy looking at everything else. 8-)

The Day Passed

So Saturday came and it was pouring with rain, needless to say the Markets were cancelled. We went there anyway and waited an hour while they made the decision not to open....it was after all pouring with rain. Mind you later in the day it cleared for a few hours, but then it rained again. 

I have mixed feelings, I would have liked to have gotten over my first time nerves, but I also didn't feel as well prepared as I would have liked to have been, so now I have a couple of extra weeks to get better prepared. Of course, I certainly didn't want my paintings getting wet in the rain anyway. Also in two weeks it will be that much closer to Christmas, so people will be out shopping for presents and there will be more tourists in the area.

This week I have to finish my Art School application and get that sent in, get the house ready for my daughters, boyfriends 21st birthday party, which we are hosting, and on Thursday I'm having laser eye surgery, just to top off the week....as if I didn't have enough to do.

Not to mention that it's just over a month to Christmas and there is still a lot to do with the kids and grandkids all coming home this year. It will be busy, but we'll love it.

As for my other project of a song a day on YouTube (look up dmaurice1964), because of my eye surgery, I now have to do a lot of recording beforehand because I can't wear makeup for a couple of weeks and vanity won't let me do the videos without it...............bring on the next few days, here it is after midnight, I can't sleep because my mind won't stop and I have too much to do, but we'll get through it somehow.

It's A New Thing

As I sit and write this it's pouring with rain and I can hear thunder and I'm wondering will the markets even be on tomorrow and it's an important question because tomorrow brings new things to my life.......I start selling my paintings for the first time.

I began panting only 3 years ago and I've managed to accumulate a huge number of them, and with the encouragement of my well meaning family and friends I've begun to take this thing seriously, and I can't believe I'm actually doing it.

I've sold a couple of paintings to people I know, and I showed 6 paintings in an Art Show recently, but it was a very amateur show, so it wasn't hard for my work to be amongst the best. 

The thing is now I'm really stepping out.

I'm more nervous tonight than I think I've ever been even before gigs when I've sung before 1,000's of people, but I've done that since I was a child and you get used to stepping out on the stage and just doing it.......I kind of wish that's what I was doing tomorrow, singing my heart out as I've done so many times before....what if they reject me? 

We'll wait and see...........